I’ve learned more about my pace and how to gauge my ability to enter the Suicide Prevention Nonprofit space.
I didn’t touch it – no research, no questions, no nothing until June, 2013. That was 10 months after Drey had died. And I had to take it slow. I learned that I needed to take it slow the hard way. I guess that’s the best lesson. I hesitate in sharing what I’ve learned and what I’ve engaged in because the majority of people that read this won’t care – at least not much. But then again… I started this blog for me. As a big part of my healing. So if I’m ready and wanting to summarize what’s taken place to date then I guess I oughta.
I’ve connected with people at the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. I’ve met them, learned more about how the organization functions and coordinated a team walk last October. We had 40 people attend and raise over $3,500. For the record… I would’ve been even happier if we had 100 people and had only raised $1,000. The love I feel by having others come out and remember Drey means the world to me. Erase the stigma… TALK about him and about suicide and depression. Don’t sweep it under the rug.
I’ve joined the field advocacy team for AFSP, too. What’s that mean? It means a handful of staff of AFSP keep me and other volunteers updated on what legislation – local and federal – is being considered, passed, etc that relates to suicide prevention/mental health. They also provide suggested language for writing local and federal officials. And of course I add my own $.02. I don’t know if it’s making a difference or not. I hope so.
I spoke at the Delaware/Morrow County Suicide Prevention walk and at their Annual Meeting. I got to share about Drey. I love talking about him. I showed everyone at the Annual Meeting one of his senior pictures, too. I’m sure that wasn’t necessarily part of the agenda but who cares. He’s not a suicide statistic. He’s my baby, my boy. Drey. I’m grateful for the people I met through doing that – one gentleman in particular has been really helpful in understanding the “players” in this space and helping me to navigate it.
I met with one of our State Representatives and shared my story and Drey’s story with her. My main purpose for my meeting with her is not one I’ve shared with many people… in large part because I haven’t actioned the outcome and I’m a bit ashamed? Embarrassed? Not sure what word to use. Drey had been taking acne medication at the time of his death. And one of the side effects of the medication was suicidal thoughts/ideation. He was only issued one month’s worth at a time and would have to go in for blood work before he’d get another 30-day supply. So I’m comfortable the doctor was cautious. And I have no way of knowing if this contributed to his suicide. I do believe it’s a safe bet it sure as hell didn’t help matters though. So… I met with this State Rep to ask about getting a law passed around how doctors communicate what depression and suicidal behavior and thoughts might look like before and during administering the meds. The first time Drey was on this medication he was a minor so I was there with him. The doc asked, “are you feeling depressed” and some basic questions. That wasn’t enough in my opinion. How about asking, “Does depression or anxiety run in your family? If so, this could be an indicator of increased susceptibility to suicidal thoughts on this medication.” And how about talking about what happens if alcohol or other drugs are in the mix along with the meds? We could’ve been more informed. So… the State Rep shared a piece of legislation she thought would be a good fit to add my request as an addendum. She gave me the bill (all 50+ pages of it) and the name of the Rep that was trying to get it passed. The bill still sits on my night stand – next to Drey’s ashes and one of my fave pictures of us. Pacing myself… it’s important. I just haven’t been ready to engage that doctor or that issue. Not yet.
What I’ve really pursued more than anything else is “Postvention.” Postvention is helping those who have lost someone to suicide. I’ve learned they (we!) are one of the larger “at risk” groups for suicide. I’ve learned that both statistically and from my personal experience. I am now part of the Franklin County Suicide Prevention Coalition. And in that role I am working on a strategic plan around Postvention. What services do we currently have? Are we communicating what our resources are as effectively as possible? What programs/resources do we want to implement? One program we’d like to implement is a LOSS (Local Outreach to Suicide Survivors) team. This is a first responder team of 2-3 people that go to the scene of a suicide. One of the three people that goes is an actual survivor of a suicide. The single purpose for being there is to point the new survivors to resources that they can reach out to WHEN THEY ARE READY. After being trained and learning more about the LOSS teams (they are in other states and a few are here in Ohio – but not in Columbus) I’ve come to understand when a survivor can meet someone who just lost a loved one and can make even a few second connection and let them know they, too, lost a son to suicide (in my case) that the doors often open to follow up conversations and eventual healing. What an important role to play. God has blessed me to lead these efforts which includes meeting with law enforcement officials, the Coroner, mental health agencies and so on. Our goal is to launch in the Fall of 2014. Will I be able to be part of a first responder LOSS team? I don’t know. One step at a time. For now I plan, organize, champion, and communicate.
A big piece of my healing has been engaging in this Suicide Prevention space. Will that be the case a year from now? I don’t know. I don’t need to know. I’m just learning to be grateful for the strength God’s given me for today.
I promise – you are saving lives with what you are doing now. What a wonderful way to honor your son.
I wish I could get the technical hang of blogging…
Here are two posts, Part one and two…
Please accept my nomination for the Most Influential Blogger Award.
Accept an Award, Save a Life (Part 1)
And just follow the link on the blog to the second part. I just can’t remember how to do the links or ping-backs. (You will see I changed the rules for the award…but my type are known for thinking outside the box.)
And if YOU know how to ping-back, please link your story to my posts on suicide awareness/prevention. I get a lot of hits on those…
Thanks annesquared 🙂
Unfortunately I got an error when I clicked on the nomination link.
I’m not finding your categories but it’s probably because I’m on my iPad. When I’m in front of my computer I’ll try again.
Thank you for sharing this. I am so sorry for the loss of your son. I read this and I truly admire your courage, strength, and action. My two oldest lost their father two months ago to suicide. We are in the early stages of processing and grieving. My prayers are with you as you continue your journey. God bless! Lisa
I am very sorry for your loss and your boys loss, Lisa. It is a hard, long journey. I am grateful for good friends and amazing fellow grievers who have been a support and inspiration to me. Thank you for encouraging me 🙂