More thinking out loud about “I believe” statements. Rinse & Repeat…

I believe…

Your Will will be done

In Your Sovereignty.

You do not want to harm me.

You’ve given me time, talent and treasure to steward. It is unique to me, you ordained it for me, for YOU.

You waste nothing. No tears, no trauma, no brokenness.

You love me more than anyone ever has or ever will.

I make you smile (where the hell did that thought come from ha ha ha!)

Vulnerability is worth it.

I’m at my best when… I’m on my knees, I’m mission-focused, I’m living out loud. Transparent, honest, vulnerable… Freedom! Freedom! God I invite, I crave, those precious feelings of comfort, peace and FREEDOM!

I see. I see. I see statements are harder. I only imagine sinless eternity with You, God. I don’t see much past this moment until heaven. There’s a big blank space with the rest of my life.

But sparks of what could be are starting to pop up and it’s exciting. I’m cautious. I don’t want to be disappointed. I don’t want to dream and get obliterated again. Obliterated. That’s how it feels sometimes. Too much pain. Especially when I’ve said “yes” to what I believed was Your calling several times! Why God? Digression… focus…

I see:

I see a me that can joyfully embrace off of it! I see me laughing, hugging friends, being blessed by precious Godly relationships in my life. I hear SP saying, “Dude – YOU are the fucking prize!” Then I see me laughing at my prideful self, reminding myself I got nothing without You.

I see me living out the mission You have for me. You will show me what it is! You love me. You died for me. I will seek you. Here I am Lord. Send me!

God please let me experience Your comfort, Your peace AND Your power. There’s work to be done. Give me motivation. Give me more than motivation, give me excitement for my audience of one.