One year and six months

One year and six months ago you left us. It’s simply not possible for a Mom to love her boy more than I did you. I would have died for you. Some days I feel like I did.

Today has been hard. Harder than I anticipated. Today Robbie told me he feels like he lost both his stepson and his wife on 8.8.12. I told him through sobs that I hated you for doing this. I never thought in a million years that I’d have a thought like that. But I never thought in a million years you’d give me a reason. God, I miss you.


4 thoughts on “One year and six months

  1. Robbie needs to understand that he did, indeed, loose who you were. That person will never come back. Paul will never ever be the same man I married and I won’t be the same women he married. Our spouses lost that person the day our child died. Even Myles told me that he lost his brother and his best friend who was Paul. We will always be different people. We have been amputated. We will always be amputated. It is the sad sad story of losing a child. We just don’t loose them. We loose ourself and our spouse, our family etc as we knew them. Please get the book Beyond Tears by Ellen Mitchell. Both of you read it. It is one of the best books I have read!!!! Sending a very big and tight hug to you today Denise.

    Sent From My IPad

    “If you know someone who has lost a child, and you’re afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died — you’re not reminding them. They didn’t forget they died. What you’re reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that is a great gift.”–Elizabeth Edwards

    Best Regards, Ellen Schoonover Personalized Assistance Area Consultant International Professional Relations, Inc. (IPR) Cell: 614-208-3746

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s